AND I LIKE HIM TOO....

Boys. rule my life. I am surrounded by them and they arent going anywhere, it drives me nuts but I love them.Bitter/Sweet right? Well anyway, I am like the only person thats like this. I hear girls talk all the time about how the get along with boys better than girls, if I were to say it, it would be an understatement. I basically am a BOY. At least thats what everyone calls me anyway. And yes this is the reason I am currently single, THAT and the fact that trust is a Minimum with me. But one thing I have realized about these insane boys that rule my life is I need them. <3











I have this one boy-friend and I call him DAD and that's just what he is
very overprotective, very caring, and very demanding
most of my time goes to him, and I cant lie he deserves it he's awesome to me. AR.























Then I have a friend that I met in kindergarten and he's still in kindergarten but his jokes

will alwaysmake me laugh and i cant see myself without him .AS.

Then there is the boyfriend/best friend he wont make his mind up, he wants to tell me what to do like my and he's very jealous and posessive like a boyfriend, but I can always kick it with him like my homie. We fight constantly but if he ever needs me theres nothing I wouldnt do. ML.

Lastly but not least there's my new found brother. Our relationship is based off of sibling rivalry. its so funny cuz I pick with him about the craziest things until he gets super mad then I leave

but no matter how much we get on each other nerves just know that's my man and he aint goin let nuthin happen to me and vice versus . (see told you Im a boy at heart)

But regardless of their roles in my life they help make me ME

.....and i love them <3.

HOW MUCH IS TO MUCH!

I dont know if it's just me, but I have a really hard time telling people how I feel. I dont really know why other than the fact that people are so judgemental, but it really is a problem with me. I would rather sit and think all to myself about something ; I mean completely reck my brain, rather than go and tell somebody. And when I do end up telling someone I always feel like such a dummy, like why did I say that? I talk alot but usually about nothing important and when I do get comfortable i run my mouth and never stop. Then when I am alone I always regret telling, WORD VOMIT. Really though I am ashamed of my feelings so I try to keep them to myself so that I can change them. If Im hurt I would rather say I dont care until I really dont. Hurt to me equals vulnerability and I cant afford that right now. I feel like when you tell people too much they start to take advantage of you ,they know your innermost thoughts so they know what to do to get what they want out of you. I hate to think of people like that, but can you really blame me? My personal advice would be tell what's obvious and keep the rest to yourself if possible. Maybe one day I will open up a little more,... Maybe Im scared....or Maybe Im smart. Whatever I am I hope it pays.

MY LAST L

Im messin up already. Mann. All I can say is FUCK. I had this whole plan on how i was going to carry my feelings this year. Bam! and completely flushed it down the drain in one whole day. Im smiling only because i feel like, I cant believe myself. I am completely lunchin(DC) just because i thought I liked somebody, when I should have said naw, Chi no liking i promised myself i wouldnt do that. BUt nooooooooooooooo. I just had to listen to the dumb bitch that is embedded in every woman and like him. Well this one goes down in history girls because this time, I was sure I was doing the right thing, I mean what could go wrong right?WRONG!. Everything could go wrong and it did. Im not surprised though and maybe thats why im smirking as im typing because, Maybe,Secretly I knew this was going no where and still decided to pursue. Dont we do that sometimes Girls?dont lie Yes should be everyones answer.LOL. Ha! I just had an idea maybe I should have went to see that movie HE'S JUST NOT THAT IN TO YOU.funny stuff.



A WISE GIRL, KISSES BUT DOESN'T LOVE,LISTENS BUT DOESN'T BELIEVE, AND LEAVE BEFORE SHE'S LEFT

-MARILYN MONROE

LIKE WATER!

WELL OKAY...! THIS WEEKEND WAS DEFINITLEY THE REMIX(WHAT WOULD I DO WITHOUT DC). NEVER DID I EXPECT WHAT WAS HAPPENING. ACTUALLY I USUALLY PLAY STUFF OUT IN MY HEAD FIRST ...BUT MAYBE I WAS LOOKING AT THE WRONG SCRIPT. LLS. BEING SLICK WAS NEVER ONE OF MY STRONG POINTS SO WHEN TWO FRIENDS, FOUND OUT ABOUT THERE FRIENDS ,BEING MORE THAN FRIENDS :}WELL/.... LOL SHYT KINDA HIT THE FAN A LITTLE. WHAT I THOUGHT WOULD BECOME A LITTLE SECRET RENDEVOUS BECAME PUBLIC DOMAIN ALMOST.LOL. I GUESS IT'S FOR THE BETTER I DONT LIKE KEEPING THINGS FROM THE FAM (BEST FRIENDS) LOL. IM JUST NERVOUS ABOUT HOW THIS IS GOING TO PLAY OUT. THANKS TO G5CLIVE LIKE WATER WAS BASICALLY THE THEME FOR THE WEEKEND ...AND YES WE PLAYED IT FREQUENTLY KEEP EM' COMIN. I HAD A GREAT TIME ANYWAY.
I CAME UP WITH A NEW CONCEPT THAT I THINK WILL BE VERY HELPFUL FOR THIS LITTLE ADVENTURE IM ABOUT TO EMBARK ON. I THINK IT'S WORTH A TRY ..........BUT HEY THINKING GETS YOU NO WHERE IT HAS ONLY GOTTEN THE WORLD MILLIONS OF INVENTIONS,MONEY, AND POWER ..HAHAHAHA!

"A MIND IS A TERRIBLE THING TO WASTE."-EVERYONE IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD.

AIN'T NOTHIN LIKE THE LOVES OF MY LIFE!

"MANN WAT!"...IS WHAT MY FRIEND JARON SAYS WHEN SOMETHING CRAZY IS GOING ON,SO THIS MEANS HE USUALLY SAYS IT WHEN ME AND MY FRIENDS ARE AROUND. I CAN'T HELP BUT TO GIGGLE BECAUSE EVERYTIME WE'RE AROUND EACH OTHER SOMETHINGS GOING DOWN...LET ME START WITH THE STAR OF THE SHOW...SHE IS THE BEST EVIL FRIEND I HAVE EVER HAD. WE'VE BEEN THROUGH JUST ABOUT EVERYTHING BUT ACTUAL PHYSICAL CONFRONTATION YET I CAN'T SAY HER NAME WITHOUT SMILING ...THIS HAS TO BE LOVE. SHE GOES AROUND DOING LITTLE EVIL SHIT THAT PISSES ME OFF BUT I JUST CAN'T STAY MAD AT HER...HAHAHA
THEN THERE'S MISS PASSIVE HERSELF, I LOVE HOW SHE'S SO CARELESS ABOUT CARELESS THINGS WHILE IM IN THE MIRROR PUTTING ON LIPSTICK. THIS GIRL PROBABLY HAS HER MIND ON THE NEXT MEAL, OR SOMETHING MORE IMPORTANT THAN LIPSTICK OF COURSE.LOL SO YOU CAN SEE WHY I FEEL COMPLETELY RIDICULOUS AROUND HER AT TIMES, BUT SHE'S MY SENSE WHEN I HAVE NONE <3
SO NEXT IS MY MAIN JOINT LOL. WE HAVE THIS THING WHERE A LOT OF THE TIME WE'RE NOT ONLY ON THE SAME PAGE BUT THE SAME SENTENCE ON THAT PAGE. BUT THEN THERE ARE TIMES WHEN WE'RE IN DIFFERENT BOOKS.I LOVE HER. I'VE HEARD PEOPLE SAY WE'RE MADE FOR EACH OTHER ...I BELIEVE THEM.
SO I GUESS THAT LEAVES ME THE ONE THAT IS A PIECE OF EVERY LAST ONE OF THEM. SOMETIMES IT AMAZES ME HOW I COULD ACT LIKE THEM ALL LOL. BUT OTHERE THAN THAT IM COMPLETLY RIDICULOUS , AND VERY CONFUSING...AND THEY STILL LOVE ME ........................INSANE RIGHT?..ONE DAY IT'LL BE A BOOK ABOUT US.

My Dream Boy

My Dream Boy is not the typical dream boy, He he doesn't have to be tall dark and handsome, attractive, to me not necessarily the world. He's funny and athletic. He loves the way I'm totally ridiculous and he's kinda ridiculous too. He's passionate and he doesn't care what people think. Totally in control and aware of his surroundings. He loves to play with my feet and he laughs when I say stupid stuff. Not easily angered. SOmeone in charge. Someone thats like me only a little better at things. He hasn't found me yet but I'm sure he is looking. I love him already. Probably cuz I made him up.
My mom says I cant find him because I act like a boy, but he'll like that about me too. I thought I had the dream guy and boy was I wrong I met him when i was 16 yep I was an idiot. I dont regret it though it showed me how much better I could do. My mom also says that all guys lie...... I wonder...

pillow talk

iM usually very non-confrontational but lately whats really been bothering me is the ladies in my life. Now first let me begin by saying, that High School was my first time ever hanging with a group of girls. Before then, i was a huge tomboy that loved girl clothes. I played basketball, I wrestled, and even had "boy talk". But as anyone can imagine I wanted to know what it felt like to hang with a group of girls. So in high school after many comings and goings of girls my little clique( for lack of a better word cuz I hate that word) finally formed. I was and still am very grateful for these girls I love them dearly; So naturally when I transferred schools my last year i was sad to be apart from them

But to my surprise I gained another clique,
so now I have two groups of friends with the same problems
One of the problems is the fact that why the hell are we friends if we can't talk to one another
about problems. Each of us are embarrassed or ashamed,to talk about issues because the others are quick to judge or give a bitchy ass opinion. My thing is be supportive everyone makes mistakes

Why do we call people our friends that we can't talk to or that we secretly hat or are jealous of
that is SICK! If i cant talk to someone then they aren't my friend period. Don't get me wrong right is right and wrong is wrong but if that person is doing no wrong as a friend then why not be there for them.

Yes disagreeing comes along with any loving situation but when your friend can't tell you her feelings because of what you might say or think of them. That's a problem, why not be a stranger!

THIS SHYT IS RIDICULOUS IM GONE TO HANG OUT WITH THE GUYS
LOVE ,
CLUELESSLY INFORMED